Easter was the first "holiday" I experienced after the loss of Alan. I can remember that first Easter after he died like it was yesterday. I was miserable and I really didn't want to celebrate anything but I did have the girls to think of so we went. The entire family was at my mother-in-law's and I certainly didn't get the reaction I expected. They were carrying on like their normal selves and here I was without my son and wondering how in the heck could they be acting like nothing happened. Well in these 7 years since, I have learned they still had their normal lives and it obviously didn't evolve around me! Gee what a surprise! lol
I had the privilege of having a "new" normal that I was getting used to and am still adjusting to today.
A few weeks ago, I was able to request Alan's name be written in the sand on the coast of South Carolina. Yesterday I received the picture of his name. It was just what I needed at this time of year!
So even though he's not here with us....he is always, always, always in our hearts. And we will meet again.
So as I close tonight and get ready for all the activities tomorrow, I wish each of you a very blessed Easter day!
